As I was working at my desk this morning, it felt liberating to be "back at work" after all the talk of "cancer". And then, the surgeon's appointment occurs and I'm whiplashed back into the world of cancer.
Just as Alice was pulled down into the rabbit hole, I'm dropped into the cancer vortex: "The rabbit-hole went straight on like a tunnel for some way, and then dipped suddenly down, so suddenly that Alice had not a moment to think about stopping herself before she found herself falling down a very deep well." - from Alice's Adventure in Wonderland
As I move through my screening, procedures, and appointments I'm finding it extremely difficult to quickly adapt between life as normal and life with cancer. Just like its' cells, cancer devours my attention and energy.